ⓛⓞⓥⓔ*Apocalypto♥Apoptosis*๑۩۞۩๑

我的媽訝。。菴討厭雙層的床，不知道咂整的一天到晚就撞到頭.。菴討厭mac，msn，adium掛補上去，qq接收遲鈍，中文字菴還有些找不到（well，我對繁體字反應遲鈍）.。菴討厭搭飛機，對jet lag非常恐懼，即使只是從state的東部到西部.。菴討厭現在的天氣，白天hot死了，傍晚開始狂風呼呼吹，讓俺們半夜蓋著被子在街上走.。菴討厭rockets，沒有lakers的playoffs非常沒勁。。
可是菴太喜歡在rach混亂的床上耍了，即使被她譏笑say菴睡覺的簡直是貼著牆壁睡的.。菴也喜歡mac的那個blueblue的壳，一開機就有箇blue的apple出現，還有那個多功能的touch pad.。菴著實喜歡去旅遊，乘著飛機飛遍全世界.。就是因為這種天氣，菴才有機會一星期換遍不同的hoodie.。

I know it is really a tough time for some people recently. Some of them are my friends. They are taking thought for their dreamed school’s admission and future. I had ever been through these before. I never knew who was supposed to be. So I’d always spend my time apologizing to the privilege and the wealth, and the opportunities given by my family. I felt other people deserved more than I did. Cause they are working so hard to fight for their dream, and the ambition. But finally I’m learning that you can’t fight against who you are. My parents believe in me, they believe that I can own a brighter future. My family has many traditions and good examples. What they all have in common is commitment to bringing out the best in yourself, your potential, even if you are not sure what that is. Once upon a time, I had ever lived and moved about without a definite destination or purpose. And I was scared that “little” devastating blow would destroy my easy life. Eventually I was soon surprised to see how quickly things begin to fall into place. Yesterday is gone and I have a hunch that something good is going to happen. Haze time is over!

April 3th: lalala..今天天气真是好到爆炸，我的心情也就跟着飘上了天。。其实是因为我见了我的advisor schedule下学期的课，看着满满的课表让我感到很满足，summer term有差不多给我搞掂。。生活还是继续混乱下去。。俺爹娘整天担心俺会减肥，这查实不用担心，俺可是一天到晚都在吃，自从发现我的meal plan要在这个semester用完，情况越发严重，一日5餐。。自从spring break之后，我就停了work out.。这体重hopefully大概可能是有向上长的。。

April  6th: 今天又开始飞雪了。。我的妈呀？where is the spring? but 我照常穿着短袖套着fleece去上课。。啧啧啧。。时间飞逝ticktock ticktock..还有一个月俺就可以死去boston and rach一起了。。还有一个月就可以回归祖国的大地了。。话说某日深夜俺下了那部lexie推荐了很久的【霜花店】。。赵寅成还是那样的帅。。可是有些detail怎么那么多，影响了整部片子的可观性，sigh…这个年代就是那样的乱。。今天又有个seminar,又提起了我的伤心事。。career is not a job..u have to enjoy yr work.。这这这。。我很无语。。主讲者是penn state的alumni,god.他说他儿子也是。. 话说不是我不想把spring break的照片上传，是怕爆流量。。sigh。。

                                                                                              you are my super super star.---loveholic

                                          虽然我觉得这foto有点。。但是我要继续表达i’m crazy about this

Due 2 some  unreasonable reasons, i closed down my  blog in spaces for a while. 一直再找一个某个心情愉快的日子restart. 可惜今天心情不是愉快。。连续2晚吵到睡不着，频临崩溃的边缘。。

After spring break, 我的生活继续的混乱下去。今天是tUe.一个esl  quiz 一个econ的midterm. 关于econ,似乎是我把问题看的太简单了，或者是我的智商还没到那境界，当我拿到有50题卷子时，我出现了幻觉。。天呐。。我心理素质也够差的了，看到别人接着交卷离开考场，俺当时狂躁症出现了。。sigh..mayb i screw up.

腻在lab画图花了一下午，画到有点抓狂，为了找extrude失败的原因，zoom zoom了n个Point。事实上，那4幅图我已经画过3次了，第一次在class时忘了存，第2次因为chinese 在学校系统上无法辨认，第3次不知道按错了个键整张图毁了还不能rebuild。差点让我崩溃掉。而且让我用回solidworks的中文版我也不会找不到键。sigh..我不知道我现在到底还对engineering执着认真些什么。即使那是我所谓的认真。后天就去schedule下学期的课了，我想我的理想我的兴趣应该是到此为止了，I give up.。既然finance是他们想要的结果，我也不讨厌，so that’s it。 The harsh reality is,  i  have no choice.

关于记忆力这是个很玄乎的东西的。偶突然发现原来很多东西我会瞬间遗忘，突然在某时某刻又重新拾起。。

日子还是照常过，looking 4ward my summer time. ;p

爱死这个牌子和Hollister了